Blissed Out.

boyfriend's hoodie

&

sleeping kitty

perfect. 

one more

yes. this blog is going to turn into posts about my cat. sorry. 

dear world, meet charlie.

i love him. 

best christmas present eva.

scream. shred your lungs. i need to hear you louder now.

here kitty kitty

my car's probably going to get towed today.

 

 

 

 the snow is unreal.

it would be so amazing if i didn't have work/school today.

the snow is perfect.

and i'm trying so hard to hate it.

outback steakhouse.

for your sparkling soul.

Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexations to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter, for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble, it's a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantement, it is as perrenial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive him to be. And whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy. 

Desiderata by Max Ehrmann

WOW

Do What You Love - Afton from The Panic Room Videos on Vimeo.

view all the "do want you love" videos here.
my favorite is cole. 

creative life

'tis the season.

the first and last items on the list are what i really REALLY want. 

• moccasin boots

• woodgrain macbook skin

• diana

• mighty mouse

• yoga clothes

• candles and candleholders 

 

• toms shoes

• onesie pajamas 

• an orange kitty

CUTEST THING

You need to look at this. Make sure you scroll down all they way through. Read it.

when i grow up

i want to be just like her:

 

+

she's a freelance designer and wears pajamas to work.

this will be me someday. mark my words.

procrastination

this is perfect for me right now. 

but how does one force oneself to study art history?

i think it's impossible. 

do you listen to modest mouse?

what about wilco?

how about this one

i'm easy like sunday morning.

bbf

my best friend turns 20 today.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLAIRE!

boo!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN! 

Anna Sergeevna Odintsov

For my Russian Humanities class were required to read Fathers and Sons, and to my surprise I actually enjoyed it.  Especially the character of Anna Sergeevna.  In case you haven't read Fathers and Sons (and if you haven't don't worry, it means you're normal) you should know a little about her. Here's the wikipedia summery:
Anna Sergeevna is a wealthy widow who entertains nihilist friends at her estate (nihilist is a movement which rejected all authorities). Bazarov (one of the main characters) declares his love for her, but she is unable to reciprocate, both out of fear for the emotional chaos it could bring and an inability to recognize her own sentiments as love itself. Bazarov's love is a challenge to his nihilist ideal of rejection of all established order.

And this is why I like Anna Sergeevna:
"Anna Sergeena was a rather strange creature.  Having no prejudices of any kind, having no strong conviction even, she never gave way or went out of her way for anything.  She had seen many things very clearly; she had been interested in many things, but nothing had completely satisfied her; indeed, she hardly desired complete satisfaction." pg. 82

"Dreams sometimes danced in rainbow colours before her eyes even, but she breathed more freely when they died away, and did not regret them.  Her imagination indeed overstepped the limits of what is reckoned permissible by conventional morality; but even then the blood flowed as quietly as ever in her fascinatingly graceful, tranquil body." pg. 82

"...He had struck Madame Odintsov's imagination; he interested her, she thought a great deal about him.  In his absence, she was not bored, she was not impatient for his coming, but she always grew more lively on his appearance; she liked to be left alone with him, and she liked talking to him, even when he irritated her or offended her taste, her refined habits." pg. 86

"You want to fall in love," Bazarov interrupted her, "and you can't love, that's where your unhappiness lies."
Madame Odintsov began to examine he sleeve of her lace.
"Is it true I can't love?" she said.
"I should say not! Only I was wrong in calling that an unhappiness. On the contrary, any one's more to be pitied when such a mischance befalls him."
"Mischance, what?"
"Falling in love." pg. 91

"So you have noticed reticence...as you expressed it...constraint?"
"Yes."
Basarov got up and went to the window. "And  would you like to know the reason of this reticence? Would you like to know what is passing within me?"
"Yes," repeated Madame Odinstov, with a sort of dread she did not at the time understand.
"And you won't be angry?"
"No."
"No?" Bazarov was standing with his back to her. "Let me tell you then that I love you like a fool, like a madman...There, you've forced it out of me." pg. 96

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longest post ever. but do you see why i love her?

the yoga master

 

i started doing yoga about...3 or 4 weeks ago.

i am in love.

it's amazing. it doesn't even feel like a workout but your sore the next day!

it's a relaxation time that doubles as exercise!

and if you know me,  you know how much i hate exercise.

running, walking, weight lifting..YUCK

but i'm actually seeing results. i can touch my toes and hold it for a full 2 seconds!

which is good for me, because i couldn't even come close before.

and i can do full tree pose for a half minute with each leg. 

hope you're all having a good week!

Dear God,