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HAPPY HALLOWEEN! 

Anna Sergeevna Odintsov

For my Russian Humanities class were required to read Fathers and Sons, and to my surprise I actually enjoyed it.  Especially the character of Anna Sergeevna.  In case you haven't read Fathers and Sons (and if you haven't don't worry, it means you're normal) you should know a little about her. Here's the wikipedia summery:
Anna Sergeevna is a wealthy widow who entertains nihilist friends at her estate (nihilist is a movement which rejected all authorities). Bazarov (one of the main characters) declares his love for her, but she is unable to reciprocate, both out of fear for the emotional chaos it could bring and an inability to recognize her own sentiments as love itself. Bazarov's love is a challenge to his nihilist ideal of rejection of all established order.

And this is why I like Anna Sergeevna:
"Anna Sergeena was a rather strange creature.  Having no prejudices of any kind, having no strong conviction even, she never gave way or went out of her way for anything.  She had seen many things very clearly; she had been interested in many things, but nothing had completely satisfied her; indeed, she hardly desired complete satisfaction." pg. 82

"Dreams sometimes danced in rainbow colours before her eyes even, but she breathed more freely when they died away, and did not regret them.  Her imagination indeed overstepped the limits of what is reckoned permissible by conventional morality; but even then the blood flowed as quietly as ever in her fascinatingly graceful, tranquil body." pg. 82

"...He had struck Madame Odintsov's imagination; he interested her, she thought a great deal about him.  In his absence, she was not bored, she was not impatient for his coming, but she always grew more lively on his appearance; she liked to be left alone with him, and she liked talking to him, even when he irritated her or offended her taste, her refined habits." pg. 86

"You want to fall in love," Bazarov interrupted her, "and you can't love, that's where your unhappiness lies."
Madame Odintsov began to examine he sleeve of her lace.
"Is it true I can't love?" she said.
"I should say not! Only I was wrong in calling that an unhappiness. On the contrary, any one's more to be pitied when such a mischance befalls him."
"Mischance, what?"
"Falling in love." pg. 91

"So you have noticed reticence...as you expressed it...constraint?"
"Yes."
Basarov got up and went to the window. "And  would you like to know the reason of this reticence? Would you like to know what is passing within me?"
"Yes," repeated Madame Odinstov, with a sort of dread she did not at the time understand.
"And you won't be angry?"
"No."
"No?" Bazarov was standing with his back to her. "Let me tell you then that I love you like a fool, like a madman...There, you've forced it out of me." pg. 96

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longest post ever. but do you see why i love her?

the yoga master

 

i started doing yoga about...3 or 4 weeks ago.

i am in love.

it's amazing. it doesn't even feel like a workout but your sore the next day!

it's a relaxation time that doubles as exercise!

and if you know me,  you know how much i hate exercise.

running, walking, weight lifting..YUCK

but i'm actually seeing results. i can touch my toes and hold it for a full 2 seconds!

which is good for me, because i couldn't even come close before.

and i can do full tree pose for a half minute with each leg. 

hope you're all having a good week!

Dear God,

 

 

funk

i'm in one. 

i need to get out. 

...but how?

how are you?

10:11pm

How have you been?

Gooood. i guess. idk i've just been ok to be honest.

haha how have to been?

it's the truth. i've just been ok. 

how are YOU?

hats

hats are so itchy!

but i can't take it off because it gave me hat head.
darn you hat. darn you.

amelie

today while i was checking out books about diagrams and african art at the library...
the manager walks over and goes, "HEY! You look just like Amelie. From the movie!" i've never seen it. have you? do you think i look like her? i suppose there's some resemblance in the eyebrows.

where'd you learn to do that so well?

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funkin pumpkin time

i love my little sister. 

here's why:

-she's spunky

-she's her own person

-she loves food

-she's hilarious 

-she's a tomboy

-she's not afraid to speak her mind

hey tuesday! sit on it and rotate!

today i had "one of those days"
-i forgot to print my graphic design assignment

-my backpack was so heavy, when i put it on i literally stumbled under it's weight (right in front of cute russian boy..ugh)

-i'm stressed and as a side effect i clench my teeth while i'm sleeping. resulting in lots 'o pain all day long

-because i'm stressed out..i decided it would feel good to lay in a tanning bed for a while and erase my tan lines. so i got some special, powerful tanning lotion. while applying said lotion i thought, "hey i should just put this all over!"..stupid. i walked out all blotchy and red and HOT! i missed a bunch of skin, especially on my back. i look ridiculous.

-and to top it all off i have a little test on thursday...the perfect preamble to my BIG test on friday!

thank goodness this weekend is a long weekend. i am so ready to see my family!

(sorry for the complaining...just had to get it out of me)

fall: shades of orange

the polaroid film i bought was old, expired, terrible.

all my photos turned out orange.

oh well. it's fall.

the breakup blog

if only i could sing. 

design project #3

TYPOGRAPHY
we were supposed to pick a song and do a typography poster of the chorus. i like this assignment. we haven't even had our preliminary critiques yet so this is definitely not the final product. i just wanted to show you :)

while leaves fall like confetti

 

 i love these. 

especially the bottom one. 

i couldn't enlarge it..so look here.